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Joshua Graham ([personal profile] smormon) wrote in [community profile] bigempty2026-06-09 09:00 pm
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[closed] two drifters off to see the world

Who: Joshua Graham and Aries
Where: Dead Horse Point, Zion Valley

Dawn, this time.




For just a few precious minutes, the scorched oranges and rusted golds of the overlook are drenched in coral and rose and dancing purples, thrown high by the Colorado deep below. Still, cool, calm. In an hour or so the sun will have burnt the blush from the land. If Joshua is lucky it will do the same for him if, when Aries finally arrives, he cannot smooth over his last attempt at companionship.

Because that is what this must be: companionship. They'd been too close in that small, stuffy little boxcar, and he'd let his guard down and his mind wander- and then wander further still on his return, which had not posed too great of a threat when he had distance to cushion his desires. Warm eyes, hands, scars like spiderwebs, ensnaring his thoughts when he least expected it. But that night had also made it abundantly clear that, no matter what, those thoughts were not to leave his head. Whatever version of Joshua that Aries wished to keep in his head would never survive intimacy; barely a whisper of his sins had been enough to poison the entire evening. This, Joshua tells himself, is a good thing. Any good man would be repulsed.

He has also told himself that the forgiveness of God and his family is enough to sustain him. How could he have known that he would crave it so from a man who had never even heard of the Legion until Joshua walked into his life?

No. Let go; begin again. He will be a good friend to Aries, and that will be enough.

It's quiet out on the road. He's tried reading to settle his nerves, but they've long won out. Dead Horse Point is not home, as such, but it is as close as Joshua Graham expects he will ever come to home again. As he squints out across the half-light, searching for that familiar silhouette, a curious kind of pleasure bubbles up within him at the thought of sharing it with someone else. Someone new. He's even, God help him, looking forward to the chaos that Aries will undoubtedly generate when they get back to the village.

This time they will leave smiling. This time, he will not fail.

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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-12 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)

Aries had drank too much, taken his shirt off, and reminded Joshua that he once was a war criminal. It wasn't the worst first date! --Now, see, Aries, you can't joke like that. Joshua wasn't the kind of man anyone should date, or have a crush on. Crush. Made it sound violent, immature. That was exactly what those feelings were to Aries.

That night ended after their conversation about pets turned into an awkward exchange about war dogs. It was late, and they both needed to sleep. Aries dreamt that night of his family's taxidermy shop on fire. And despite that, he promised to visit Joshua in a few months time. He wanted to finish out his contract and say a few goodbyes.

Traveling across the wasteland that used to be the great American West? Why not? He cheated death, went into cryo, but he'd never been to New Vegas!

Joshua wasn't New Vegas, and in Aries' opinion, he'd rather be in Joshua's world that his own world alone (wait, weren't the the lyrics to Midnight Train to Georgia?)

He'd gotten pretty far with his Blue Ridge uniform alone, but a change was needed. Aries painted his mask with darker paint, swapped out his brightly colored caravan costume for something that wouldn't overheat him, but still hooded, still the same shape. On his back: his old plasma rifle, in addition to a pink baseball bat wrapped in chain. Because fuck you, and creative liberties, that's why. In his boot, Ever Upwards. Joshua's home had once been a state park, clearly, he needed a Scout's knife.

However, he hadn't drawn any of his weapons since he had crossed into what he believed to be the territory of the tribe that took in Joshua.

He felt watched, but not in danger.

The sun turning orange and pink and purple made Aries gasp-- a lot made him gasp, though. He was slow to see Joshua at first, as he was staring dumbly into the sky, like a thrasher during a radstorm (they say more dumb turkeys die from drowning than wastelander's guns).

Aries held back a shout when he finally did spot him, but did wave his arm up over his head, and it was entirely possible that he had a spring in his step, skipping and bouncing a few steps before going to jog the distance between himself and Joshua.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-13 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Aries huffed and puffed, but at least his respirator didn't have to work as hard as it did back East. He tried to hide the fact that he was out of breath, because then he'd draw even more attention to the fact that he nearly ran at Joshua the way a dog to it's master (no, not the dog business again!)

Joshua's hands on his shoulders, and he wasn't sure how to return it. Instead he tipped his head forward and up-- in an attempt to bop his mask's respirator against Joshua's forehead.

And he couldn't help it, "Missed me? Pfft. It's normal for an old man's eyesight to get shitty, keep practicing, your aim will get better again."

Aries then braces himself, to be told that he was impossible, or some other fond way that Joshua called Aries 'annoying.' (Aries thoughts, not the truth).
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-15 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Aries, however, does think of it as a kiss on the forehead. He's able to keep himself from making a silly sound (like 'muah!') to magnify the action. He will let it stay there in the air as it is. Just as when Joshua returns the silly joke, Aries can only silently appreciate how quick it was served back to him. It was difficult for him to keep his fond feelings as silent thoughts, but if he wanted time with Joshua, he'd have to just shut the hell up. Easy as that.

And the other man's hand stays on his shoulder, and somehow his heart doesn't beat from it's cage. The way that they were touching was casual, platonic-- but it reminded Aries of summers were he didn't realize how hot it was, how much he had been sweating-- until he was in the shade or in front of the ice box. The light touch felt much heavier, so much so that he thought he was going to choke.

It really had been too long, freaking out over the smallest gesture.

"They saw me, and said to their selves, eh, give him a chance, he ain't hurtin' nobody." The Appalachian sing-song-slur in a dirt-scratchy voice, and you could tell he was smiling despite no visual confirmation. "Other than that... s'hot. Long stretches of road... but it's getting dark, we can try the constellations again."

And if it wasn't obvious that Aries had been thinking about that night nearly constantly: it was now.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-16 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It's no surprise to tell you that Aries often blurted things out-- hemming and hawing, overthinking, practicing the conversation in his head-- and yet there he was, just letting the basic thought out of his mouth (respirator) and into the shared oxygen.

Joshua's pause confirmed what Aries thought, or rather, what he obsessed over. That was definitely a poor end to that night. Joshua suggested sleep and Aries agreed, curling up in the bathtub outside. It would be different this time--

"I've seen the ranger stations. They look exactly like the ones in all the other parks buuuuut, if you wanted to try that target practice, I could run around in the dark." Oh, but the next thing Joshua said took him by surprise!

"Your own cave... golly gosh. It must be good to have your own place."
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-17 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
Joshua smelled like gun oil and smoke (the latter could have been imagined, part of the scary monster's backstory). That smell stayed in Aries' bed, causing him to sleep elsewhere-- or stink it up again with his own scent, while sleeping in his mask.

Aries let out a guffaw, "Sure, but I'm wearing my desert variant now, and the air and is a lot cleaner out here..." Maybe his sinuses would finally stop acting so foolish, and he could leave the mask off! The tribe might appreciate that-- Aries wasn't sure, though.

"You know for a fact that I don't care about my privacy, especially not when it comes to you." He probably should stop himself while he's ahead, "Don't make too much space, I hope we get to cuddle this time." And then Aries slapped his hands together, only to then rub them greedily after.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-18 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Clean. He smelled clean. Either from the bandages or maybe it was aura. Vibes. The holiness of it all. Too clean to touch, but that didn't stop Aries from imagining it. There's lust, of course, but that only came after Aries realized he couldn't stop looking at the other man. Hearing his voice in the back of his head. He worked through conversations in his mind, trying to make his words magnificent.

Aries thought he might laugh until he cried. He stifled it. "I could stand in the river, I'm not above a little nature, washing away my sins." Joshua and everything around him was perfect and clean. Clean. The bombs touched everything, but it seemed as if it just caressed this area-- while his home was full of lush trees and swamps, Joshua's home was dry and warm.

Which mean Aries was sweating, every crack and crevice was drenched. Not to mention the smell that would come out of his mask once he removed it.

He sighed, "I want to talk to you before we get back home." His voice cracked in distress. It wasn't his home, but he wanted it to be. "It feels like lying if I don't tell you something... prickly."
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-18 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Aries hated when things got too real. He liked his reality chopped up and spread out. He liked to lie and distract. Fluff things up, let the truth mist around where he could avoid it with his gas mask. This was important. He didn't want to hurt Joshua, and he didn't want to hurt. Honesty is always the best thing.

Aries knew how to be honest, but he didn't want Joshua to worry about disappointing or hurting him-- which in turn, would hurt Joshua. Aries didn't want to do that, so he would put it all out there. Joshua could then use his knowledge to steer clear of Aries.

Defintely not because Joshua felt the same. Not at all.

I don't want to accidentally make it so much worse. Put the fire out before it spreads.

"I'm flirting with you... I'll stop if it makes you uncomfortable." He groans, or sighs, or maybe he was dying, it was hard to tell with the way his throat crackled with snot and spit (so alive!) At least it was nice and dry out here--

"I have... ah, romantic feelings for you." Quick, pack the wound before you bleed out. "I can stop that too, if it makes you uncomfortable."

Gross, his mask might fog up if he lets it fill with all his little tears. He blows his air out through his mouth and it registers as a robotic, staticy sound. A face that doesn't move, and a heart that will never break (never ever).
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-20 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Now would be the best time, Aries thought, to kiss him. Passionately, in the purple dusk with the orange sky and the stillness that Aries only remembered from back when it actually snowed.

That would never do, both their mouths were covered, which felt like a cosmic joke. The whole thing was a joke: failed mad scientist with a hole in his heart... and the co-founder of the most hated and feared faction in the west who was thrown into a ravine for an example to be made.

They had both nearly died. Aries changed his name, Joshua came back to religion. Aries took a long cold nap and ended up somehow, lonelier than before. Joshua was a ghost story. He was clean on the outside, bandaged and pure white. The man himself was probably a gnarled mess beneath the bandages and even more so deep in his heart.

But right then, Aries doesn't register all that. He feels Joshua's hand balling up the shoulder of his shirt in desperation.

It was like every little atom in his body was crowding around his chest, all clenching there and in his stomach. Tears started to burn a little. Thank the so-called God that his face was covered.

He nodded slowly, but spoke brightly "Yeah! That's all right. I'll stop." I know enough and I still feel this way, the words could just evaporate now.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-21 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
Aries thought before he spoke, he really did. It would echo in his mind for a moment as if he were going to recheck the thought to be said aloud-- only for it to escape anyway. Less escape, more diving off a cliff. He knows he should, he knows he could, and that Joshua asked for it: stop feeling that! Keep moving, drop it! Change the conversation to the weather!

LOOK AT THAT SKY

He coughs, or barks, doesn't matter, it comes out anyway, "...then lemme go."

Aries immediately regrets bringing attention to Joshua still holding onto him. He's not sure for the reasoning behind the lingering grip, but he feels as if it were something he was supposed to ignore.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-22 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe Aries did actually know when to shut up. He followed Joshua on the vague trail, just like he followed Joshua all the way back west. He didn't yap on about cryptids, or about the weather, or about the stars-- not even about the bighorners he'd seen on the way.

He wasn't angry with Joshua. What he felt was shame, as he just made his friend uncomfortable. Aries was at war with himself: saying that he killed his ego and he's just the id; he's not Calvin, he's Aries; he's a jolly ol' trickster! He was so very desperate to throttle his own personality out of him, he just made it stronger. His self-awareness was dangerous levels, having bared the small, injured animal that might have been his heart. The blood was turning brown now that the air hit it.

"Wh--" He was hot, he was hungry, he was torturing himself. "C'mon, don't make me go. I'll... be good." Aries hands went up as if he were being held at gun point. The croaky sound in his throat broke, his own body betraying him once again and letting his pain be audible.
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-23 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Another shift and Aries gasps slightly, it gets caught in this throat, and he barks a cough.

"Well-hell-ell, I've been wrong before. To be fair, I've been in the heat all day, I'm hungry, and I thiiiink I might have freaked my friend out."

Aries thinks to himself that he's a genius, he will always be clever and beautiful and live forever by changing the subject-- "Is this more of a village, or a camp?"

He's heard about the land, he's heard some of Joshua's people (not "people" as if Joshua were a King, that whole idea felt gross). He didn't really know how they lived. "Those were y'alls scouts? It's like the trees have eyes! Is anyone going to meet us?"
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-23 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Every time Aries thought he figured out other humans, it came to his attention how different every single living thing was completely different (and alone!) His mind was a bulldozer at times, telling him that he and (whatever he was currently obsessed with) were in synch and important and ever lasting. The therapist at Bysshe said he "dissociated" but she also said they couldn't "prescribe" him any of the "good stuff."

He couldn't even tell Joshua that story, the idea of a therapist evaluation at an energy company might be too much to grasp for an anecdote. The future is now!

"Is there anything I should avoid talking about around them? It's all good and fine for me to refer to them as a whole, as Dead Horses?"

At one point in time, Aries thought that the world was so small. He grew up near the mines and would be considered by most a 'hillbilly.' Then nearly all people died with just the bombs' impact, the planes falling from the skies, the power loss. The violence and greed that came from it, the kind of stuff that tore apart neighbors and families, and cultures. He saw it first hand, and knew that adapting was the most important. He'd rather make friends than enemies, above all things.

Besides, no one liked an ignorant asshole walking into camp and pretending he knew everything. (Apparently they had already went through that, ha ha, Joshua).

Aries wanted to answer questions and be respectful and would honestly eat anything they put in front of him without hesitation. Maybe he could swap recipes! The idea that someone wanted to meet him, especially after someone he was so smitten with (what was it that Joshua called it? Infatuation)-- they were the one to describe him. Most people heard about Aries from people who hated him! (See also: Vinny).

Joshua's glance feels like a jab, a little heart-shaped arrowhead piercing his skin. "Not alone-alone. Alone with you, I do. I'll calm down once I get my mask off and eat something. I really want to eat one of those geckos, Jos-shwa."
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[personal profile] sheepsquatch 2026-06-24 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
It took Aries far too long in life to realize that when a person is making fun of you, when someone is teasing-- don't freak out. Bounce a bubble of buffoonery back at them, and it's like you speak their language. As it was stated, Aries tried to hard to figure out what made him different for so long. Sometimes, he has a stroke of clarity when he realizes he can move between countless types of people if he just pivoted, imitated, repeated. Just a little something he picked up over the years of anonymity, which came when he was hiding and trying to heal his gaping throat wound.

The smell wouldn't reach his nose until he'd removed his mask, and his eyes watched Joshua's own gaze, to see the physical proof of dinner. The mention of banana perks Aries up, more excited now than nervous. "Bananas??" Maybe Joshua should let Follows-Chalk introduce Aries to the fruit that is inedible until cooked. He hasn't had a banana in over 200 years!

"I used to get a banana cream pie on my birthday. Shelley bought it from the Slocum Joe's that was in the nearby city..." If he can see the smoke, he can hang on a little longer.

"Don't forget, I gotta get a river-shower."

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